Great is Thy faithfulness.

The song, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness" was played at both of my great-grandparents' funerals when I was sixteen years old. At that time, it was a song filled with comfort and peace, knowing that the Lord would be there even when others cannot. When Tyler and I got married, I felt that it was a great song to include because of the hope and constancy it conveys, and had it played during the seating of the grandparents and parents. In different seasons of my life, this song has spoken different things to my spirit. Tonight at church, we sang "Great Is Thy Faithfulness" again. It really caught my attention because it seems to reflect where I am in my walk with the Lord right now. There are a lot of things up in the air in my life and most nights I go to bed wanting to pull the covers over my head and have a good cry. A lot of things going on right now don't seem to make sense in my human brain. There are deaths and illnesses and major life changes and financial problems. I can't see the next page of God's plan and, uber planner that I am, this stresses me out. There are so many unknowns and not nearly enough knowns for my type A personality.

I believe that every one of us relates to God in a certain way, or that a specific characteristic of God really reflects how we view the Lord. For me, the Lord's faithfulness has always been something that drew me to Him. No matter the circumstances, no matter how many times I have failed, no matter how many times I have turned my back on Him or how many times I have prayed this week or any other decision I make, He is FAITHFUL. My favorite Bible verses are those that promise His faithfulness. One passage of Scripture that I hid in my heart at a young age is Psalm 18, which includes verse 25 -

'To the faithful, You show Yourself faithful...'.

If you only knew how many times I have prayed, sobbed, whispered, or boldly declared that verse in my life. During a particularly stressful time in college, I wrote "TTFYSYF" on the top of my study notes. I still have one from a statistics class that says - "4.0 GPA - TTFYSYF" written in large bold letters across the top. God WAS faithful - I made a 4.0 that semester.

As I face the unknown, I praise the Lord that He is faithful. He never wavers, never changes, and never stops loving me. And I love that about Him.